Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder why I bother to wake up
To get up in the morning and face another day
When everything seems to be losing color
And all I see is the dreary gray of a mundane world
It feels like being alive is so insignificant

Sometimes I wonder if I know what I want
I don't know, I don't even know myself
And perhaps it really is a bad thing not to know
All this time I thought it was alright for now
But it seems there is a time limit, I'm almost out

Sometimes I wonder how I manage to smile
While everything inside your head is screaming
While all your emotions whirl in utter chaos
It's all an act, always an act, just an act
And I wonder if people can ever tell the difference